your call has been forwarded to an automated v…

your call has been forwarded to an automated voice messaging system
your will to live
is not available,
some shred of hope
is not available,
your call has been forwarded –
i’m sorry 
but you’re unavailable,
emotionally, geographically…

the third ring breaks 
slightly quicker
than before
and i’ve never prayed 
so deeply
for a voice
– at the tone, please –

i don’t care if you’re hanging up
or if it’s ringing out 
but i need a voice 
to speak
to me 
and keep me sane
in this fallout

your call has –
your call has –
the ringing never ends
my call log is the red sea
with names
of all my dearest friends

but time 
runs out
and calls
decline
and life
was never
pantomime

your call has been forwarded to an automated –
no.
you’re worth so much more
than crying on the floor
and repeating calls to souls,
recovering and sore.
they can’t pick up the phone 
while holding it together
go find them,
it’s time we all escape the tether.